Hey Patchies,
It's so hard to sleep here without you. I'm always remembering getting up to hold you and it's so unsettling how you aren't here, and then I have to remember the way you left us. And it's too much because I remember when Daniel left too.
And I am so lost. And I love you so dearly. And I wanted to go on being a mommy to you little boys for your whole long lives.
I just miss you and it's hard to sleep here sometimes.
Mommy kisses.
